“You are never too old to set a new goal or dream a new dream”
Ever since I was a child, my little heart nurtured the dream of serving my homeland. In the beginning, it was the defense forces bewitched me. But it wasn’t long before until I realised that my petite frame would be of great concern if I were to join the defense forces. It was during my internship days I met a retired civil servant while travelling home from college. Our conversation slowly progressed to the civil services and I felt as if I found my calling. After pondering over it for days, I decided to write the exam. First of all, people start preparing for the exam since school days and here I was risking my profession and my five years of toil for something that was so uncertain. It was very difficult for me at first as my knowledge of current affairs was weak and studying economics from the scratch was intimidating.
It took me an year until my dream finally seemed achievable. And above all I found it interesting. I also started faring well in the mock exams and the real ones weren’t so far away either. Unfortunately, it was also the time when my parents started searching for prospective grooms. Whenever I told them I wanted to study they would say, “you study, we are only doing what we have to”. The topic always ended there. Having total strangers coming to see me wasn’t bad but the explanations that I had to give made me feel bad. I had no answer when they asked me questions like what was I planning to do if I didn’t get through or if I was sure I will get through. One guy had the nerve to tell me I wouldn’t because none of his friends did. And then there was emotional blackmailing going on too. Suddenly the only thing my parents wanted was to get me married. I was under a lot of stress as a result of which my studies was suffering.
There was so much uncertainty around and I had already lost an year. I decided not to write the exam that year as I had only four attempts and I didn’t want to loose any. And I knew I would never clear the exam in such a state of mind. That was when I met my husband for the first time. After meeting so many guys, talking to him was such a relief. The first thing I ever told him was, “I don’t know what I am going to do in the future because I am totally clueless myself and impulsive as well”. He laughed it off and told me,“So am I”. That was all I wanted to hear. And since he was working abroad and writing the exam again wasn’t possible either. We didn’t want to stay away from each other. It was a tough call and I took it. But then, I knew that my dream would never go down the drain because all I wanted was to serve my people. And when you really want something you will always find a way.
Today, I feel so lucky that we are married. One decision I am so happy to have taken. Once we settle down, we have decided to keep aside a part of our salary every month for helping those in need. And also, with time sponsor a child or maybe two. I strongly believe that there can never be anything better than having someone who shares the same dreams as yours. I also know that for my dreams to come true I do not need to clear exams, just the thought and someone who loves you is more than enough. Housing believes in the power of being together as well. Please do check out their site to learn more.